Internal Conflict!!

Restlessness yet numbness.failure.stomp!.i smoke.walk alone.shit happens!.get it out

Weakness.immobility.I fail.arghh!.break a glass.scream!.smoke.walk alone.try to get it out.

perfect morning.good things are finally going to happen.that's the way it's supposed to be.I fail.why me?.I smoke.Loose all control.walk alone furiously judging Him harshly.hysterical moments.i can't get it out anymore.

It's been some time.May be there is a ray of hope.maybe life has grey patches after all.it's a beautiful day.things finally looking up.I fail.I smoke.get zonked.arghh!.volatile fury is what this is.break anything i see.I can't do this anymore.arghh!.stomp!.*sound of things breaking narrating a story of it's own*.

Maybe it's not Worth it anymore!!