Suttle Numbness

Boulevard of broken dreams as the song goes

Is what it seemed to be.......

Watching silently all I ever wished to become

Go up on smoke as its beautifully circled around me..

As I watched myself puff the last drag out..

Take it in and let the nicotine do it’s thing is what they say

And then let there be light...

But all i witnessed was burning desire go up in ashes

As i sinfully waste my life away

With all my past mistakes haunting me..

Hitting me like the angry waves

Of shimmering dark waters

Images of your life flicker by your eyes

They say..

But I wasn’t dead...not even close

But slowly dying from within

With every passing moment...

Slow inner degradation is what this is...

Fading vision...pain starting to seep in

Is this what they call dying?

If so, then my time has come

Carrying the burden of having made a million mistakes

Being an err of a person

Having led an ever selfish life..

Blinded by which i lost my way..

Path that promised to show me truth..

And lead me to my destiny

Is this what He planned for me?

Coz fate has got me pretty bad..

Like an injured bird i lay there

Trying to figure out where i went wrong..

And feeling sorry for myself

Waiting for the scavengers to hover around

Any time soon..

Soon enough..

And to be torn apart into peices..

With my eyes narrating the painful story..

Called my life..

Sublime numbness is what I endear..

The passing wind..

Is the only thing..

I feel, breathe and see..

Good memories were they indeed..

Nostalgic moments is what is left of them

But it’s time to let go

Fear is just the beginning and utter darkness

The end..end end of this saga

The end of me

The journey’s been like a movie..

Except after the ending..

There will be no credits..

No one to thank as such..

Just a blank screen...with an anonymous identity

No song that brings tears to one’s eyes or that’s cheerful

Just plain silence...

And the sound of rustling of leaves..

And a bright screen that follows...

White light..

So bright..

It’s starts to hurt....