(Random thoughts killing me inside...everyday)


where am i?
coz this is not even close to the place
where i always imagined myself to be...
who is the person is see..
coz its getting too dark..
too dark to see..
i can't even recognise
the blank face in the mirror..
distorted reality or blinfolded truth..
i don't even know the difference anymore..
so much shit's been happening lately
i don't even know where i'm headed to anymore..
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like the kite..
who soared high up in the sky..
blinded by its faith in the wind..
and deceived by the high promising sky..
and lost its way in between...
clouded by doubt and utter confusion..
left alone in the now dark windy sky..
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But it wasn't always like this..
there was time when i saw hope..
beleived in destiny..
never gave up on blind optimism..
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But all that's long gone now..
misery and suffering is all i see..
having thrown away my destiny
with hopelessness, sarcasm and pessimism
deep into my system now
long gone is the guiding white light..
i once used to feel inside me..
linking my soul to the now extinct wayful destiny..
a lost soul in the darkest of times
meaningless existence.
screaming infedelities..
broken wings..
rotting inside..
painful silence...
Karma is long gone...
....


(end of thought)